Oh where to even begin....
My husband has been gone for a month today, and I would be lying to myself if I said it wasn't the hardest thing I have ever been through. But somehow, someway I find the strength everyday to put a smile on my face and push on. Sometimes it is a struggle to get out of bed, but I know that moping around will not bring my soldier any sooner.
So where do I find the strength? Well at first I faked myself out by saying "if you make it today without crying, you will be okay." Or by telling myself "A year, that isn't that long. You will be just fine." You can imagine how those statements didn't last longer than a day, if that! So I decided I needed to find and lose myself in my faith. I needed to become a women of God, so that I could be a good Army wife and an even better light for those around me. This life isn't easy, sometimes it is down right brutal and unfair. I struggle everyday and sometimes I don't believe that I will make it a year... but you see that is being "Me Strong". Because living "God Strong" means I can do anything with Him as my guide. I CAN make it through this deployment unscarred, and I can become a true woman of faith for my husband. If I live "God Strong" I am more focused on Rick (my husband) than myself and my woos and miseries.
A bible verse a day... one of my goals is to find a bible verse a day and live through it. When I feel sad--which don't get me wrong it is OK to feel that way-- I pick up my bible or journal and I read a verse I have written down. For I know that in His word I will find strength, courage and peace. This life isn't about surviving, it is about thriving and not losing yourself in the process. I will have my days that I don't get out of bed, but I just have to pick up where I left off and remember that in God I am no longer weak. It is so humbling to be a Military Wife. To know that your husband is risking his life so that I can live freely. I am so proud of him and I will gladly stand by him each step of this journey. I will be the one there with open arms to welcome him HOME! Until then I will continue to shower him with Love and Support from the home front.
This is my prayer as a military wife:
Give me greatness of heart to see,
the difference between duty and his love for me.
Give me understanding so that I may know,
when duty calls him, he must go.
Give me a task to do each day,
to fill the time when he’s away.
When he’s in a foreign land,
keep him safe in your loving hand.
And when duty is in the field,
please protect him and be his shield.
And Lord, when his deployment seems so long,
please stay with me and keep me strong.
